The end is the beginning
You are a wonderful person and I am very lucky to know you.
Love always, Jeremy
This message that Jeremy wrote on his EP really lifted my spirits.
I was wondering if I had ever experienced a case of “too good to be true”.
The day before Halloween, I lost my job.
It’s not something I want to/should detail, but when I asked, I wasn’t given a reason why. I just had to leave. I would have been satisfied with explanations of anything I had done wrong to lead to my employment being terminated (getting distracted by instant messaging; being late; having an attitude; whatever), but I didn’t get anything. I was obviously not wanted, or needed, so I went through the process of grabbing all my belongings, returning anything that did not belong to me, and left.
That’s all I’ll say about that.
It was a quiet train ride home as I sat next to Tristan, who helped me carry my various coffee mugs, food from the kitchen and other stationery I had kept with me in the two years I had worked there. I didn’t shed a single tear, and I remained fierce. I dearly loved my job, being able to do something I loved as part of my career, but I guess that dream is over now. I’m not going to cry about it or mope about how I have no income, nope — I’m going to move on.
It’s so close to the end of the year that I don’t feel like looking for work right now. In fact, this could all be a lovely new start. Tristan said all my problems are now gone, really — I was often stressed about how little time I had for university, and now, a week before the end, I have all week to work on things. There were many other things that were on my mind and little bits and pieces I wanted to do, mainly to do with cleaning my blog and the websites I have decided to stop running over the past year. Every single one of my close friends would constantly tell me that I needed a break, and I never seemed to give myself one (and nor did anyone else). Now that I am
jobless , it does serve as an opportunity to enjoy my own company, as well as my friends’, and rebuild things I may have accidentally knocked over on the way. It was heartwarming to hear words from my friends about how I’d be okay. Their confidence in me made me want to cry, because you just don’t find beautiful friends like that all the time. So yeah, here’s to losing jobs. Ha hahahah.
So — whatever really. I’ve nearly got a masters degree under my belt, I have enough experience to keep going. I have interests in photography which have potential to get me somewhere, and I could even move onto music journalism. I may work in web design again, I may not. I have a ton of connections and it’s not the end of the world. I have so much I want to do and can do, and this isn’t going to faze me. I’m so proud of myself for taking it so well. I mean, getting fired isn’t the greatest, but — if life gives you watermelons, make grilled watermelon sandwiches.
That is to say, if life gives you something kind-of-awesome — go and make something bloody fucking amazing out of it.
I can do whatever I want.
You know what the best part is? James and I are going to Hong Kong and Japan in December.
Awh, I’m sorry for it. Well, leaving the job is the best way if you often stressed with it and got a lot of work to do at the same time.
Enjoy your trip with James this December! Hong Kong is a really nice place, although I haven’t went there before.
One door closes, another opens xx and you’re right make the new door you enter fucking fantastic xx
you are so strong and I admire you. Not shedding any tears when it happened shows that you are better off without it and I pray for an even amazing job awaits you in the future. Take a little break and be back stronger. We are all here cheering for you ^^ Have a nice weekend =)
I’m really sorry to hear you lost your job. It seems so harsh that they asked you to leave without giving a reason. Surely this is unfair dismissal. If I were you I would have kicked off, but clearly you are a stronger person than me. :)
I think you should make the most of your time out of work. I remember how good it felt when I left my job. It gave me chance to catch up with my friends who I had cancelled on so many times due to unsociable working hours.
At least you can look forward to going to Hong Kong and Japan. I bet you will have an amazing time. :D
I’m so so glad to see that you’re remaining optimistic through this! I’m sorry that you’ve lost your job but very happy that now you have more time for uni and your master’s and things. Good luck to all of that and I hope you keep your head up ♥ ♥ That grilled watermelon sandwich looks interesting but since you’ve said it was good, I’ll trust you on that :D And I hope you have loads of fun in HK and Japan!!
Well, that was terrible of them! At the very least, they could have told you. I would have also been furious as well. Sounds like it doesn’t have much to do with your job performance if they’re so unwilling to tell you.
But since you’re usually totally stressed out anyway and still live with your parents, you’ve definitely made the right choice. You’ve got a solid portfolio, so hopefully you’ll be able to get a job when you need one! I look forward to seeing the updates to your web sites that you’ve been meaning to do.
I am so glad that you are looking at this in a positive way, even though it probably would be hard in some ways, especially because they couldn’t even say WHY. But you will have more time to do things and I am so glad that all of your friends are being so awesome. You are very talented, have worked hard and have a solid education behind you. You will find something that is perfect for you.
That sounds so amazing that you are going to do some traveling. I hope you have such a magical time. ♥
I’m so glad you are facing a situation like this with such positive outlook. You graduated from university two years ago, right? and you’ve already had a job for two years. That’s something to be so proud of. You’re still young so this is just a door opening to more opportunities for your future. Take some time to rest, learn something useful to expand your career upon.
Hong Kong is the greatest city in the world (and if I had a chance to visit Japan, I completely would). You have so much to look forward to! You’re not unemployed, you’re taking some time to become greater!
I did indeed! Though that was my Bachelors degree and now I (almost) have a Masters. It should help me in finding something new. I’m really enjoying my hobbies at the moment.
I am in utter admiration of your positive attitude that you are exhibiting right now and I think we can all learn from it. I’m sorry to hear that you lost your job, and it’s so unfortunate that they gave you no warning or reasoning for their decision. :( That seems terribly unfair! However, taking time for you and recognizing your own self-worth is challenging and you’ve nailed that in this blog post and in your life. I hope it works out the way you want it to, and congratulations on your Master’s!!
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I am so sorry to hear that you have lost your job. :( However, I am glad to hear that you are remaining positive – it will be a great help during this period.
I hope that James and you have fun during your vacation to Hong Kong and Japan in December. I expect to see lots of pictures of cute stuff and yummy food when you return. :)
Thanks for your comment Jessica! In remaining positive, I am getting really excited for my trip, and you can definitely expect some photos. I’m taking my laptop, so you might see some stuff posted while I’m there. :)
I’m very sorry to hear that you lost your job. Unfortunately, it happens, and all you can do is move on – which you did beautifully! Not having the pressures of that job on your shoulders enables you more time with friends, family, and of course finishing off school with less stress. I am proud to call you my friend even though we have yet to meet face to face in person. Been online friends for years, and I’m proud of you every minute you accomplish something. This is by far the best accomplishment you have done. Not being fired of course, but by not shedding any tears or showing that you were hurt is beyond superb! I know it’s tough right now, but as they say once you fall off a horse, get right back on it. *hugs*. You’ll be able to find something better and move onto bigger and better things.
That’s what was told to me when I moved out of the apartment complex I was in. Tristan (my boyfriend) told me “Forget those people! They’re mad because you’re moving onto better and bigger things!” And it’s true! I have extra money to work with each month, I can buy books, be prepared for college when I go in January and I have a loving boyfriend and family that doesn’t want to see me struggle! So look at it that way – you have a loving family that cares for you and doesn’t want you to struggle while going through and finishing up college with a masters degree, you have a wonderful boyfriend James! The two best of friends Lillian and Tristan, and wonderful friends online to support you and cheer you on in life. Think of it as a blessing in disguise. *Hugs again* You’ll be fine and continue to shine.
I think that’s totally unfair. :( But anyway, I believe that everything happens for a reason. There might be a better oppurtunity waiting for you out there. So keep the spirit and positivity burning. Okay? Fight!
I have a new blogpost. It’s called #BIRTHDAY2013. You might want to check it out? And leave a mark, maybe. ;-)
Who knows? Maybe you’ll find an amazing opportunity next year simply because you’re not in this job anymore. You never know. Either way, much luck!
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I can sympathize with the job loss – I had been working an amazing internship earlier this year, with a great boss and an a great company. I thought I was getting along fine, but one Friday I was called into the HR office and told that they were going to have to terminate my internship early. It was horrible, and I cried for 2 hours… then I became very resolute and fierce and threw myself into job searching.
I remained jobless for about 1.5 months. At first I stressed a lot about being unemployed, but after a while you start to learn how to relax. I ended up having lots of time during the day to go to yoga and dance classes, try out new restaurants, go visit some of the parks in the area. It was really cathartic.
I wish you the best of luck with your career transition!
Hey Vivian, thank you so much for your support. :) I’m glad you could relate to my post, and I also feel for you learning that your internship was terminated when you really enjoyed your time there too. It was terrible losing my job but it’s certainly not the end of the world.
Since I will be away in December, I don’t feel like jumping into a full-time job any time soon, so that will leave me without a job for at least two months before I start looking again. I can’t complain though, I have had a lot of time to relax and engage in a lot of hobbies, and it honestly feels very rewarding!