Soft Skeletons

In case you haven’t caught up or heard, Tiffany and I opened our forum. We now have over 60 members in the space of just a few days, and nearly have a thousand posts in total! I would like to thank everyone who has joined so far. 🙂 Visit Skeletons MB!

It has been somewhere I procrastinate, unfortunately. I’ve been posting there just to avoid doing other work. Bad. 😰

How do you guys procrastinate? I find that I just get distracted from what I’m doing and start playing a game or surfing the internet, when I’m supposed to be typing an essay or something like that. When I procrastinate, it’s usually because I got distracted in the first place. I seem to be a worse procrastinator now than I was before – that being in high school.

I always used to get my work done on time and sometimes earlier; that way I had less to do and I could just muck around.

When I’m engrossed in something it’s a bit hard for me to break out of it. I think I’m really on a roll, and I get super pissed off when someone distracts me.

The past few days have been really terrible. My mum has been pestering me to do housework since she had a weekend off, and when she has weekends off, she wants to clean the house because it’s the only chance she gets. It’s not like our house is a pigsty, or its condition needs to be maintained because it sparkles everywhere. But, admittedly, our house is a bit of a mess. The funny thing is that it looks like there is so much stuff everywhere, but everything seems to have its place. And she has interrupted my studies a few times. 😞

We had another huge fight the other day. Not something I really want to talk about, but it was terrible, and sometimes I just feel like running away in the hope that everything will be better. It really hurts inside. And I felt like cutting myself again. I don’t want to go back to those dark days. I tried so hard not to. I bit my lip and my hands just to stop myself.

It’s hard. Some parts of me struggle. I know I snap back at my parents a lot. I have an awful temper. But I’m always trying to look on the bright side. I know that sometimes I just have to keep quiet and obey… It’s hard to talk to my parents about things that concern them, of course.

It doesn’t help that someone was impatient for me to open my hosting site and was really damn rude about it (not you Jamie; don’t worry). I want to do reviews again but of course, I just think that someone is going to snap at me for not doing reviews quickly enough. 😡

It’s come to the point where I have to use my laptop in the wee hours of the morning just to get stuff done.

There was a time when James sat with me for two hours as I was crying – pretty much about the same family problems. I was crying over and over but I was talking, telling him my feelings, choking it out. Sometimes it just helps to talk to someone. And I can’t thank Lilian enough for reading my garbled angry words on MSN when I suddenly explode to rant. ♥️

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