written 18th April 2013
It’s too easy to fall, It’s far too hard to watch and while I listen I hold on to the only thing I know I’ll be able to catch in return and I’m watching, watching you, far from falling, far from dealing with pain and if I could breathe your name in my sleep, I would, and if I could feel the music in my veins or far beyond your ears, I would, because it’s too easy, it’s so difficult to see you and so excruciating to reach for you, It’s so hurtful to reach out and touch your hand, and it pains me more than it does to look in your eyes, so while I feel a little less further away I don’t feel like there will be a day when I turn around and leave you, as much as I want to, as much as I can let go, as easy as it is to look away from your eyes, and don’t tell me you tried to save me, It’s so hard to know you’re here when it’s just too easy so easy, to fall, to fall for you.