The title of this blog post comes from a novel I read a while ago. I don’t remember what book it was. It had a lot of other wonderful life lessons and quotes mentioned in it, though they didn’t form the body of the novel. Another quote mentioned in the novel was this famous one by Lao Tzu:

The journey of a thousand miles starts from beneath your feet.

That was how it was quoted, though direct translations and other versions of the quote exist, with slight variations. The novel didn’t credit Lao Tzu, but the plot had a very Asian background. I’m a little disappointed I cannot remember the title of the novel, nor the author. I read it in high school, which would have been at least six years ago. I did keep a list of books I’d read in my school diary, but I have since thrown my school diaries away. I know I’ll know the book when I see it, or when I happen to read it or pick it up again. [...]

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It’s hard to find phone cases I like and I’m picky as hell. I got my iPhone 4S last September (pictured above, taken September 2012, case-less), and for a while I used it without a case. It was, in my opinion, far too pretty to put a case on.

I dropped it a few times. I dropped it flat on tiles, numerous times around my house on carpet and on corkboard floors, and one day I decided to buy a case for it. My previous phone was an Android that wasn’t so crazy glass-like, and was more “plastic”, so I had enough fun throwing that around without it actually getting wrecked. My old iPhone (3GS) was essentially a brick; I had a Speck case for it that was impossible to take off, made it look fat, and I dropped it on floors countless times and witnessed it bounce. The iPhone 4S isn’t like that at all, and could easily get smashed.

You live and learn. I finally decided to invest in a case for my [...]

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My head has been in a literal daze, a damn spin, it’s been on the body of an English person, it’s fallen in the gutter, it’s been covered in paint, it’s been kicked, whacked, hit, and it’s just been abused. University is finally over for the semester and I finished my last assignment only a few hours ago and my head is so heavy I can’t even think. Granted, I was up late most of Saturday and Sunday and I procrastinated for a very, very, very long time. I went and downloaded the entire discography of Deftones and The Smiths, and I bought a new pair of boots yesterday. I also got my hair trimmed to get rid of the split ends, and cut my fringe shorter because I was just starting to look like Sadako from The Ring.

On Thursday, James and I went to watch one of the Vivid Sydney light displays. It was lovely. I felt the need to share it with people, so I took a video and I sent it [...]

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Early this morning at about 3am, I had a panic attack. I never had one before, and the feeling was horrible. I couldn’t breathe, I found myself looking for cover, trying to curl into a ball while I was sitting at my desk. After trying to move off my chair to sit on the floor and failing, I bowed my head down and let my chest heave as I panted, until I managed to calm down about ten minutes later.

The thing is, it was worse before that. I started hallucinating. I was seeing images from the movie The Shining. I was seeing blood dripping down the walls, “REDRUM” in red around me, and the walls, which had turned black, were caving in. I saw anime characters, and multiple instances of No-Face from Spirited Away, with his face distorted like Edvard Munch’s The Scream. It was terrifying. I was alone at the time, and going to the kitchen just for a glass of water was difficult. I had to turn on every light, look around [...]

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For the past two to three weeks I have been experiencing polyphagia/hyperphagia — excessive hunger or increased appetite. It is so bad it has come to the point where I have to stop myself from walking into the kitchen or going near any food, and I am wearing my retainer during the day to simply stop me from eating. In the past couple of weeks I have eaten whole packets of ravioli and tortellini (that read “serves 4” on the front) in a day, whole bags of beans, tubs of yoghurt and packets of waffles. I’m not eating anything severely unhealthy in excess — I am having the occasional chocolate and handfuls of candy but I’m only slightly grateful that I haven’t eaten a whole pack in one sitting.

A couple of weeks ago I ate a whole box of chocolate sticks and it made me so ill that I threw up. The reason I have been eating so much is because I just do not have the ability to feel full. My stomach [...]

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