Heaven Can Wait
It’s been a while since I’ve been so free of worry, but I definitely feel that way now. My doctors told me that I won’t notice the antidepressants having any effect until three weeks into taking them, but it’s been a week and I feel pretty good. My sleep is still being interrupted, and my mouth is constantly feeling dry, but they are things I can deal with. Oh, and I’ve lost weight… but no one generally complains about that. It’s just that I’m already very thin.
Since taking my first dose, I have found that I haven’t been habitually looking at the clock like I did before. I am also less anxious and worried. I used to worry so much about having so much to do. Maybe it’s because I have less to do, now that university has finished, but I am working long hours, so that’s taking up a lot of time as well.
Regardless, I am really loving my new job. I still have my other two – the one at the education centre (my first job, which I’ve been at for nearly four years) and the other web designing one (I haven’t been called in for two months). But this new job is great. At my other job I struggled, but here I feel like the challenges are not so difficult. I have learned quite a few new things. Today I learned about Textpattern, another content management system like WordPress, and built a whole website using it. So in two days at work, I pretty much built the layout and put together all the content of a website. I’m really quite proud of myself. I believe that people should love what they do at work and I’m glad I have this opportunity to do something I enjoy but that also gives me a challenge and allows me to learn new things.
I suppose one of the things I dislike about the Bachelors degree I just finished is that I didn’t learn much that was “new”. I am sure many other people learned new things, but because I had excellent computer literacy before I enrolled, I was rather advanced in some of the subjects. I had no idea that I would find a lot of the course content easy, but it was suited to what I want to do in the future and will no doubt assist me in finding work as well. I am still, however, looking forward to my Graduate Diploma in Interactive Multimedia next year, because I am sure I will learn many new things.
I still find it a bit ridiculous that a lot of employers look for qualifications. A lot of occupations really only require you to have a certain kind of skill. It seems almost pointless to get a degree these days, and I know I can open up a discussion about that here… but in the end employers seem to just look at your qualification to confirm that you have the knowledge needed for the job, because the knowledge might be covered in a particular course.
Really though. My dad works in the mailing facility – which pays well – and he has a degree in Civil Engineering. He isn’t really using anything he learned. And my mum has numerous Diplomas in Information Technology and Mortgage Lending, and now has the job of her dreams as a beauty consultant. I’m proud of both my parents, either way. They might not have known it at the time but now they’re working jobs they enjoy that aren’t really related to their qualifications, and dare I say, they are good at what they do. I am so grateful to them for letting me choose my own path when it came to university, because I’ve pushed through my studies and put in every effort looking for jobs and it has really paid off. I didn’t need to prove anything to them. I did what I wanted to do, and I can tell they’re happy for me. 🙂
I’ve said this to so many people before, and I just want to reiterate: if you don’t know what you want to do as a career, just go for anything. Somewhere down the track you’ll find something you love. The working road is not always smooth. My own mother went from a secretary to a financial consultant to retail and now she works in the beauty sector. Sometimes you may have to go through many things before finding what you realise is your dream.